Hey you guys!
I wanted to share a couple videos. I have been obsessed with this first one. I absolutely love the meaning of this song and always have.
I hadn’t seen THIS version of it though and LOVE IT! I could go on about vocal techniques and how amazing her/his voice is but I find the message even MORE astounding.
I think it’s more important than ever to live this way today, especially with what’s going on. To let people know that it’s ok to live your life being who you are.
Everyone who knows me, knows that I’m bi-sexual. I’m also from the theatre, which is why I understand some things about vocal techniques, etc. Although being from the theatre, I only spent a few years growing up there and later in my 20’s/30’s I was in the musicals “Oliver” and “The Hobbit” . They just shaped my life. I am what I am though and although I realise what could have been, I am a visual artist, writer, etc. today. I’ve spent many more years studying and learning the visual arts.
I honestly would love to work on musicals back-stage but anything else, I leave to others and no longer wish to be too involved in the glamour of showbiz. I love it, I always will but I am a back-stage baby.
I AM trying my hand at twitch again though, if you’d like to take a look at that. It’s at: https://www.twitch.tv/angelasartarea Why twitch you may wonder when I have been on a stage in person? Why twitch when it seems mainly for gamers? I would ask why not? These people are just that…people. Why not join them?
If you’re wondering No I’m not being paid to say that. It’s just the way I see things.
Besides, if you take a closer look, you will see that many artists are on Twitch as well. I don’t think that it should say gamers but gamers, musicians, visual artists and even cooks! You’ll see if you visit my channel though I am anything but the camera in my face type. I’m also having a hard time with the audio at the moment. If you have any pointers there please let me know. It’s alot for one person to get set up and working right. I’ll save that for another post though.
One of the things that I found so moving about that first video was that I just learned about the cult Twin Flames Universe.
I honestly can’t speak about this subject on video because it upsets me so much. The leaders tells people that they get messages from God. That God wants them to know that they are REALLY a guy or REALLY a girl. Due to that, those leaders have talked people into getting trans surgery, etc. Some are so brainwashed that they deny having been talked into it, when in reality many did NOT want to change genders and said so at first. Some even simply left but due to that were emotionally abused, etc.
The fact is that God doesn’t need anyone on earth to send messages for them. God touches people all on their own. I say their because I do not believe God is a man. I believe a part of the Spirit of God lives in each person. That would be both male and female.
Some may think badly about those who are trans. Some may think that they are ungodly, I think just the opposite! Those who are truly trans will know because God will touch them so that they know. Nobody can SEE it but trust me, they can FEEL it. They will know in their soul that they were not meant to be in the body they are in. Nobody on earth has the power to do that but God and nobody should claim to. The way I see it, claiming that and talking people into surgery is taking advantage of the unknown.
I’m not saying that I think ALL trans people are perfect, etc. They are people though. ALL people can go either way. All people need God or what I think of now as the known. I think that everyone needs the unknown in their life because life is not easy. Those who are trans obviously need the unknown and due to that I believe many are closer to it.
Surgery is not to be taken lightly. I had surgery for a completely different reason but any type of surgery is very scary. I truly believe that only the unknown can help you find the strength to get through something like that. That’s also why this song truly touches me ALOT right now.
If I ran into that cult as a teen, that leader would have been able to talk me into something like that easily. I had more ex-boyfriends but multiple ex-girlfriends. What can I say? I was a wild one but who wasn’t growing up? I have always found the female body to be absolutely breath taking. I just have… I was VERY confused about that growing up too and was told by some that I was just trying to be like my sister.
If you do not know, my sister is 100% gay, married and happy. I never only liked one sex though. Yet, I always felt perfectly fine in my own body. Infact, growing up I was a tad girlish. Although I also was taught to be like my mother.
To be honest…I seem to be leaning the opposite way as I get older. I still feel fine in my own skin though. There are just so many male haters, it’s a HUGE turn off for me. Even as a teen struggling through the many things I was struggling with, I found that life isn’t worth a damn unless you can say Hey world, I am what I am!
Saying that today means that some are going to hate on you for it. I do realise that but I also realise that even though I myself do not have children, some people do. When those children grow up, personally I would rather for them to be living in a world with less discrimination than more. I would rather they be able to say without others judging them “I am what I am. I am my own special creation.”
Many who were judged for multiple different reasons throughout history couldn’t do that without being physically abused for it. Yet, they found the strength to stand up for those like myself to live in a world that gives us a little more freedom.
SURE! There is a heck of alot of change that STILL needs to be made. I for one do NOT feel free here in America but
Having an African American President was once NEVER an option.
Having someone who’s trans in office was once NEVER an option.
Having those who are Jewish, etc. in sooo many fields was once NEVER an option.
Having so many who are disabled having leading roles, etc. was once NEVER an option either.
Having females voting and using credit cards with their names on them was once NEVER an option.
Having so much hate,so much discrimination is hard but I’d speak straight to the haters and ask them to look in their history books at all of the absolutely beautiful souls who have stood for the rights we have today. I’d remind them that their hate did NOT stop those beautiful people from standing up for what’s right. It won’t stop people who know what’s right today either. Our voices matter because our voices have changed history. Slowly, it has changed. Together, we can change history again.
I will ALWAYS, ALWAYS be an artist before anything else but I will never stop creating in hopes to touch even one soul.
I have one more video to share. This is me singing Charlie Chaplins Smile. I am singing this a cappella and the lighting, etc. isn’t wonderful but I hope the meaning is. It took me a year to paint leaves like that on all of my walls representing those everywhere who have inspired me, helped me in anyway. If you have helped me, inspired me in anyway, you are a leaf on my wall.
I sang this same song years ago on the Jepson Center stage. Nobody showed up to support me or I’d at least have one photo of it. I remember the guy in charge there having tears in his eyes. I’m assuming because nobody showed up but that’s also why the song I am what I am, means alot because just as sang in it I don’t want pity. This is me without lights, without glamour, etc. Simply me because I am what I am….
Times ARE changing they just haven’t changed 100% and sadly some seem to be trying to take us back to a time when things were even harder. I say proudly that I hope one day EVERYONE can freely say “Hey world, I am what I am” and NOT get discrimination from those who fear what they do not understand.
Have a wonderful week everyone. If you DO visit my twitch channel, etc. thank you for your support. Again, please keep in mind that I am having audio issues, etc. Thanks for your support and keep smiling.
Namaste,
Angela
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